Carlisle Cullen (also known as Stregoni Benefici) is Esme's husband, Bella's father-in-law, Renesmee's grandfather, and Edward, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice, and Jasper's adoptive father. His first appearance was in Twilight and his physical age is 23. Carlisle is described to look like a model; he has blond hair, stands at 6'2", and is slender but muscular. Carlisle theorizes that when a human is turned into a vampire, they will have an enhanced ability from their previous life. He believes he brought compassion from his human life. Carlisle has had centuries to perfect his medicinal talents, therefore making him an excellent doctor. Unlike most vampires, he is not at all tempted by the scent of human blood, due to the over 300 years he has spent holding back his temptations. Carlisle Cullen was the son of an Anglican pastor, born in 1640s London, England during a time of religious upheaval. His father and other pastors would hunt down creatures such as witches, werewolves, and vampires, often mistaking humans for them. As his father got older, Carlisle was put in charge. One night, he was attacked by a vampire and left to die on the streets. Knowing he would not be accepted by society, he hid himself and silently went through the painful transformation, emerging as a vampire. Horrified, he tried various methods of killing himself, but nothing worked due to his power. One night, he could not take his hunger anymore and fed on a group of passing deer. Realizing he did not have to live off humans, he set out to perfect his blood lust and become a doctor.
For a short time, Carlisle lived with the Volturi, though he eventually left and travelled to the New World. While treating patients with the Spanish Influenza, he met a woman, Elizabeth Mason, who begged him to do whatever he could to save her son, Edward. Out of loneliness, Carlisle transformed him into a vampire and Edward became his companion. Soon after, in 1921, Carlisle moved to Wisconsin where he treated Esme, after a failed suicide attempt brought on by the loss of her child. Carlisle felt compelled to save her life and turned her into a vampire, subsequently falling in love with her, and marrying her later on. Carlisle then turned Rosalie Hale, a young woman who was almost killed by her drunken fiancé and his friends, who raped her and left her in the street to die. Later, while hunting, Rosalie found a young man named Emmett who had been mauled by a bear. She carried him over 100 miles to Carlisle. Carlisle then changed Emmett, since Rosalie was unwilling to do it herself for fear of accidentally draining him. After Carlisle changed Emmett, Carlisle and his family moved to Forks, Washington where they made a treaty with the Quileute Indian tribe, that the Quileutes would leave the Cullens alone if the Cullens did not bite any humans or trespass on their land. The Cullens agreed to this treaty, and lived in relative peace until they had to move on. Between the Cullens' first and second stay in Forks, Alice and Jasper joined his coven as well, having found Carlisle on their own. Throughout the Twilight series, Carlisle works as a doctor, acting as the coven leader and offering medical advice and help when Bella is pregnant in Breaking Dawn.
Carlisle will be portrayed by Peter Facinelli in the Twilight film.
Thursday, August 28, 2008
Edward Cullen.
Edward Cullen was born Edward Anthony Masen on June 20, 1901 to Edward Sr. and Elizabeth Masen. He and his parents contracted the Spanish influenza during an epidemic that devastated Chicago, Illinois in 1918. Orphaned and nearly dead from the disease, Edward was changed into a vampire by one of the physicians caring for him, Carlisle Cullen, acting on the directions from his loving, dying mother to "save him". From that point onward, Carlisle raised Edward as his son, instilling in Edward a morality unusual among the vampires of Meyer's fictional universe. Central to this way of life is a refusal to consider humans as food. Edward had a rebellious period near the beginning of his life as a vampire, and used his mind-reading abilities to prey on only the worst of society. However, after a few years he became guilt-ridden and returned to Carlisle and his way of life. In the series, Edward and his vampire family, which includes his parents Carlisle and Esme and siblings Alice, Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett, often come into conflict with other vampires as a result of this morality, which goes against their natural vampyric nature. A particular source of conflict is Edward's relationship with the human Isabella "Bella" Swan.
Like all the vampires in the Twilight series, Edward is described by Bella as being impossibly beautiful. At various points in the series, she compares him to the mythical Greek god Adonis. His skin is "like marble"– very pale, ice cold, and sparkles in the sunlight. She describes his facial features as being perfect and angular - high cheekbones, strong jawline, a straight nose, and beautiful, full lips. His hair, which is always in casual disarray, retains the unusual bronze shade that he inherited in his human life from his biological mother. His eyes, once emerald green, are now described as a liquid, golden topaz. His fingers are described often as slender and he is said to have a dazzlingly crooked smile. His appearance changes if he goes long without feeding: his eyes darken, becoming almost black, and purple bruises appear beneath his eyes. Edward stands at 6'2", and has a slender but muscular build.
Edward, like all vampires in the Twilight series, possesses superhuman beauty, strength, speed, endurance, and agility. His scent and voice are enormously seductive, so much so that he occasionally sends Bella into a pliant daze entirely by accident. In Twilight, Edward explains that like other vampires, he does not need to breathe, though he chooses to do so out of habit and because it is helpful to smell his environment. He cannot digest regular food, and compares its attractiveness for him to the prospect of eating dirt for a regular person. As well, like other vampires, Edward is not able to sleep.
In addition to the traits he shares with his fellow vampires, Edward has certain abilities that are his alone. He is the fastest of the Cullens, able to outrun any of them. Perhaps as a result of a talent for empathy in his human life, Edward can also read the mind of anyone within a few miles of himself; Bella is the sole exception to this rule, which Meyer has stated is due to Bella having a very private mind. Edward also retains some of the traditional mindset and dated patterns of speech from his early-20th century human life.
In addition to the traits he shares with his fellow vampires, Edward has certain abilities that are his alone. He is the fastest of the Cullens, able to outrun any of them. Perhaps as a result of a talent for empathy in his human life, Edward can also read the mind of anyone within a few miles of himself; Bella is the sole exception to this rule, which Meyer has stated is due to Bella having a very private mind. Edward also retains some of the traditional mindset and dated patterns of speech from his early-20th century human life.
Edward is described in the book and by Bella as being charming, polite, determined, and very stubborn. He is very protective over Bella and puts her safety, humanity and welfare before anything else. He often over-analyzes situations and has a tendency to overreact, especially in situations where Bella's safety is at risk. He retains some outdated speech from his human life in the early 20th century, and can be very romantic.
Edward is also musical, able to play the piano like a virtuoso. He enjoys a wide range of music, including classical, jazz, progressive metal, alternative rock, punk rock, but dislikes country. He prefers indie rock to mainstream, and appreciates rock and classical music equally. He mentions in Twilight that he likes music from the fifties better than the sixties, and dislikes the seventies entirely.
Edward is also musical, able to play the piano like a virtuoso. He enjoys a wide range of music, including classical, jazz, progressive metal, alternative rock, punk rock, but dislikes country. He prefers indie rock to mainstream, and appreciates rock and classical music equally. He mentions in Twilight that he likes music from the fifties better than the sixties, and dislikes the seventies entirely.
A hobby of Edward's is collecting cars. He owns a Volvo S60 R and an Aston Martin V12 Vanquish as a "special occasion" car. He also gave his sister Alice a Porsche 911 Turbo as a gift in Eclipse. He bought a motorcycle to ride alongside Bella, but gave it to Jasper after he realized that riding motorcycles was a hobby she enjoyed sharing with Jacob.
Information
Edward Anthony Masen (human name)
Gender
Male
Male
Age
17 (physically)
17 (physically)
Date of death
1918 (as a human)
1918 (as a human)
Occupation
High school student
High school student
Family
Edward Masen, Sr. (biological father)
Edward Masen, Sr. (biological father)
Elizabeth Masen (biological mother)
Esme Cullen (adoptive mother)
Carlisle Cullen (adoptive father)
Children
Renesmee Carlie Cullen
Renesmee Carlie Cullen
Bella Swan.
Bella is described as being ivory-skinned, with long, straight, dark brown hair, a heart-shaped face, and chocolate brown eyes. She stands at 5'4" and weighs about 110 pounds. Beyond this information, a detailed description of Bella's appearance is never given in the series. Stephenie Meyer explains that this is because she wanted her readers to "step into Bella's shoes" more easily. However, Meyer provides a detailed description of her interpretation of Bella on her website. Bella also has a small crescent-shaped scar on her hand where she was bitten by James, a tracker vampire, in Twilight. The scar is described as being pale, always a few degrees colder than the rest of her body, and as shining like a vampire's skin when in the sunlight. After Bella is changed into a vampire by Edward Cullen in Breaking Dawn, she becomes excruciatingly beautiful, her already pale skin becoming even whiter, her hair becoming darker, and her lips becoming fuller as well. Her beauty is compared to that of Alice or Esme.
Bella is described as being exceptionally clumsy. She is intelligent, has a dry sense of humor, and is very understanding and caring. She hates dressing up, saying that makeup "is a pain" and that she feels uncomfortable in impractical, elegant clothes. She has a very private mind, which is thought to be why Edward is unable to see her thoughts, and she is determined to become a vampire. She is also said to be a terrible liar, but occasionally demonstrates good acting ability. She also gets faint at the sight or smell of blood. Stephenie Meyer has stated that Bella's "tragic flaw" in Eclipse is her lack of self-knowledge. After being turned into a vampire, she describes having a more clear view of the world. She is also very self-controlled as a vampire, being able to run away from the scent of human blood. Bella's private mind that rejected some vampires' special abilities while she was human evolved after she became a vampire. Her ability formed into allowing her to shield those around her from the mental powers of some other vampires. She is also described by Edward as "very graceful" as a vampire, in comparison to her earlier clumsiness.
Species
Human (Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, through Book 2 of Breaking Dawn)Vampire (Book 3 of Breaking Dawn)
Human (Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, through Book 2 of Breaking Dawn)Vampire (Book 3 of Breaking Dawn)
Gender
Female
Female
Age
17 (Twilight)18 (New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn)
17 (Twilight)18 (New Moon, Eclipse, and Breaking Dawn)
Occupation
Student (through Eclipse)Employee at Newton's Olympic Outfitters (New Moon and Eclipse)
Student (through Eclipse)Employee at Newton's Olympic Outfitters (New Moon and Eclipse)
Renée Dwyer (mother)
Phil Dwyer (stepfather)
Carlisle Cullen (father-in-law)
Esme Cullen (mother-in-law)
Alice Cullen (sister-in-law)
Rosalie Hale (sister-in-law)
Emmett Cullen (brother-in-law)
Push It to My Limit.
For how many years of concealing and burying this feeling deep down in my heart and soul, I have lost my patience towards it. It's way beyond my patience limit.
Living in my family is a great thing. but sometimes it's all about Superiority. Dipshit.
I look invisible to some. I do. That's why I'm used to being a loner. Not just me but my other siblings. Unlike some people, we know our way around. We don't need other people to help us. It's just sad. And talking shit behind my back? WHAT THE FUCK?!
I am a hajah. I admit that I go out without tudong, at times. Is that such a huge sin? I do wear them most of the time and you don't even know that, woman! Sheesh. And she's more to revealing than concealing. Getting bitchy and bitchier every time we meet. haha and yet I still care for her after what we've been through. She didn't actually say the things to me directly, behind my back she does.
Is it really necessary to show off your wealth to everyone? You don't hear her bragging. She's capable. She has the money to apply katok or kisi or manik-manik mahal to her baju kurung if she wanted to. Just because you have such clothing doesn't mean you have to look down on others. Be humble for a change.
I won't adapt if I don't want to. I'm not a stuck-up.
I was left behind. Wawa.
Understandable or not, this is how I feel. I know it's wrong to say this about them but I've been hurt. When they encounter a mishap, they grieve. That's karma. KARMA IS NOT A BITCH. It's a good friend of mine. Hah.
I don't disrespect them in any way. I still do respect them as elders. It's just they tend to say crap about other people. I think they're just intimidated. I appreciate this gift given to me, and you don't see me boasting about it do you? See. It hurts. It really does.
I know you think that I don't dare to rebel or go against you or anything but I do if I must. You know my dad, right? That attitude was passed down to me, unfortunately.
I had to cut some bits for some reasons that may be left unknown.
Living in my family is a great thing. but sometimes it's all about Superiority. Dipshit.
I look invisible to some. I do. That's why I'm used to being a loner. Not just me but my other siblings. Unlike some people, we know our way around. We don't need other people to help us. It's just sad. And talking shit behind my back? WHAT THE FUCK?!
I am a hajah. I admit that I go out without tudong, at times. Is that such a huge sin? I do wear them most of the time and you don't even know that, woman! Sheesh. And she's more to revealing than concealing. Getting bitchy and bitchier every time we meet. haha and yet I still care for her after what we've been through. She didn't actually say the things to me directly, behind my back she does.
Is it really necessary to show off your wealth to everyone? You don't hear her bragging. She's capable. She has the money to apply katok or kisi or manik-manik mahal to her baju kurung if she wanted to. Just because you have such clothing doesn't mean you have to look down on others. Be humble for a change.
I won't adapt if I don't want to. I'm not a stuck-up.
I was left behind. Wawa.
Understandable or not, this is how I feel. I know it's wrong to say this about them but I've been hurt. When they encounter a mishap, they grieve. That's karma. KARMA IS NOT A BITCH. It's a good friend of mine. Hah.
I don't disrespect them in any way. I still do respect them as elders. It's just they tend to say crap about other people. I think they're just intimidated. I appreciate this gift given to me, and you don't see me boasting about it do you? See. It hurts. It really does.
I know you think that I don't dare to rebel or go against you or anything but I do if I must. You know my dad, right? That attitude was passed down to me, unfortunately.
I had to cut some bits for some reasons that may be left unknown.
Kawan dan Cinta.
Suatu hari 'CINTA' bertanya kepada 'PERSAHABATAN', 'Kenapa kau ada padahal sudah ada aku?'
Lalu 'PERSAHABATAN' menjawab, 'Untuk memberikan senyuman saat cinta memberimu kesedihan.'
Satu hari CINTA & KAWAN berjalan dalam kampung...
Tiba-tiba CINTA terjatuh dalam telaga... Kenapa?? Kerena CINTA itu buta...
Lalu KAWAN pun ikut terjun dalam telaga... Kenapa?? Karena... KAWAN akan buat apa saja demi CINTA !!
Di dalam telaga CINTA hilang... Kenapa?? Karena... CINTA itu halus, mudah hilang kalau tak dijaga, sukar dicari apa lagi dalam telaga yang gelap...
Sedangkan KAWAN masih mencari-cari dimana CINTA & terus menunggu.. Kenapa?? Karena ... KAWAN itu sejati & akan kekal sebagai KAWAN yang setia...
so, hargailah KAWAN kita ....Walau kita punya couple , teman still paling setia. Walau kita punya harta banyak , teman still paling berharga.
Lalu 'PERSAHABATAN' menjawab, 'Untuk memberikan senyuman saat cinta memberimu kesedihan.'
Satu hari CINTA & KAWAN berjalan dalam kampung...
Tiba-tiba CINTA terjatuh dalam telaga... Kenapa?? Kerena CINTA itu buta...
Lalu KAWAN pun ikut terjun dalam telaga... Kenapa?? Karena... KAWAN akan buat apa saja demi CINTA !!
Di dalam telaga CINTA hilang... Kenapa?? Karena... CINTA itu halus, mudah hilang kalau tak dijaga, sukar dicari apa lagi dalam telaga yang gelap...
Sedangkan KAWAN masih mencari-cari dimana CINTA & terus menunggu.. Kenapa?? Karena ... KAWAN itu sejati & akan kekal sebagai KAWAN yang setia...
so, hargailah KAWAN kita ....Walau kita punya couple , teman still paling setia. Walau kita punya harta banyak , teman still paling berharga.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
Dk Ain' Nooraqilah Nazatul Munawarrah Pg Yassin
a.k.a Munaw!!!!!!
Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you're seventeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen!!!!!! 17!!!!!!!
happy happy birthday!happy birthday! haaaappppppyy birthdaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!
love you lots,
Happy birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you're seventeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeen!!!!!! 17!!!!!!!
happy happy birthday!happy birthday! haaaappppppyy birthdaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!!!!!
love you lots,
giran
xx
xx
i want breaking dawn!
Many things happened these days. You just can't avoid them but to face them. For all this time I never actually know the feeling of losing. It's simply because I never really face those kinds of things before. Not that I'm saying I have a perfect life. NO!
I do know that sometimes I can be so mean that people can easily get hurt especially by my sayings. I'm sorry, but I speak out what I think. Let me just be honest. I'm a coward, I don’t fight. You can say I'm an obedient person especially to my parents. It's like giving me an enormous guilt if I disobey them. Well, who doesn’t right? If you're close with me, you'll know if you tease me or anything, I don’t fight back. I do but not that much until you get really threaten by me. Some of you might find me boring most of the time. Haha. I don't know, I think I'll only give good responds when I'm in the mood and when it comes to the things that I'm fond of.
Ok, back to the top. After all the bad things I've faced, I learnt many things. Now I know how terrible it is if we're going to lose someone that we really love and you think you can't live without them. Really, you don't want to face those feelings even you're so much invincible. You'll be vulnerable.
I don't know what I'm babbling up there. I just simply write since I haven’t post much recently.
I do know that sometimes I can be so mean that people can easily get hurt especially by my sayings. I'm sorry, but I speak out what I think. Let me just be honest. I'm a coward, I don’t fight. You can say I'm an obedient person especially to my parents. It's like giving me an enormous guilt if I disobey them. Well, who doesn’t right? If you're close with me, you'll know if you tease me or anything, I don’t fight back. I do but not that much until you get really threaten by me. Some of you might find me boring most of the time. Haha. I don't know, I think I'll only give good responds when I'm in the mood and when it comes to the things that I'm fond of.
Ok, back to the top. After all the bad things I've faced, I learnt many things. Now I know how terrible it is if we're going to lose someone that we really love and you think you can't live without them. Really, you don't want to face those feelings even you're so much invincible. You'll be vulnerable.
I don't know what I'm babbling up there. I just simply write since I haven’t post much recently.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
gahhhhhhhhhhhhhh
hullo!!!!!!! i is back!!!!!!wahaha wth
anyways, we got our bm qualifying paper back!dammit!!i should be ashamed of admitting this,but what the heck,i failed!grrr,cried in class masa saturday...dad was okay with it but i made dad promised not to tell mom!!i don't think my mom will handle it as well as my dad did
ada this question, i answered "dia menyingsing tabir" !!!hahaha,tabir lagi ku buat tu..tapi cikgu marked it correct...katacikgu,tabir nda dapat,yg blinds atu barutah dapat,and she asked dlm bm blinds atu apa..and i muttered silently,"butas",as in buta with an s, i know it's lame but ka jehh heard it and laughed... khairi's flight to uk is pushed back till the 8th of sept...gonna miss him :(
and oh yeah!!!!!!!BREAKING DAWN ROCKS!!!!!!! i got it from last week(21/8/08) plg udah,hihi,siukkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!finished it in more or less 2 days.. didnt't even pay attention to the subject briefing and i didn't even bowl masa cca..
here's something i got from true singapore ghost stories 13(kalau udah tau,just bear with me,i just found out and think it's funny):
A middle-aged woman has a heart attack and is taken to the hospital.while on the operating table she has a near-death experience.during that experience she sees God and asks if this is it.God says no and explains that she has another 30 to 40 years to live.upon her recovery she decides to just stay in the hospital and have a facelift,liposuction,tummy tuck, the works.
she even has someone come in and change her hair colour.she figures since she's got another 30 to 40 years she might as well make the most of it.she walks out the hospital after the last operation and is killed by an ambulance speeding up to the hospital.
she arrives in front of God and asks, "i thought you said i had another 30 to 40 years to live?" God replies, "i'm sorry, i didn't recognise you."
haha,thank you,Russell Lee. cali kann??? hahaha
tata,
giran
anyways, we got our bm qualifying paper back!dammit!!i should be ashamed of admitting this,but what the heck,i failed!grrr,cried in class masa saturday...dad was okay with it but i made dad promised not to tell mom!!i don't think my mom will handle it as well as my dad did
ada this question, i answered "dia menyingsing tabir" !!!hahaha,tabir lagi ku buat tu..tapi cikgu marked it correct...katacikgu,tabir nda dapat,yg blinds atu barutah dapat,and she asked dlm bm blinds atu apa..and i muttered silently,"butas",as in buta with an s, i know it's lame but ka jehh heard it and laughed... khairi's flight to uk is pushed back till the 8th of sept...gonna miss him :(
and oh yeah!!!!!!!BREAKING DAWN ROCKS!!!!!!! i got it from last week(21/8/08) plg udah,hihi,siukkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!finished it in more or less 2 days.. didnt't even pay attention to the subject briefing and i didn't even bowl masa cca..
here's something i got from true singapore ghost stories 13(kalau udah tau,just bear with me,i just found out and think it's funny):
A middle-aged woman has a heart attack and is taken to the hospital.while on the operating table she has a near-death experience.during that experience she sees God and asks if this is it.God says no and explains that she has another 30 to 40 years to live.upon her recovery she decides to just stay in the hospital and have a facelift,liposuction,tummy tuck, the works.
she even has someone come in and change her hair colour.she figures since she's got another 30 to 40 years she might as well make the most of it.she walks out the hospital after the last operation and is killed by an ambulance speeding up to the hospital.
she arrives in front of God and asks, "i thought you said i had another 30 to 40 years to live?" God replies, "i'm sorry, i didn't recognise you."
haha,thank you,Russell Lee. cali kann??? hahaha
tata,
giran
Monday, August 25, 2008
Apologies.
Something strucked me this afternoon. I suddenly had this urge to forgive and hopefully forget the people that I grudged on or hated or even hurt in the past. I am sorry. I know I did. Though not much of a commotion was done, still I want to apologise. Though some has actually forgiven me. I want to stop... I know it'll be surprising but this is MY CONFESSION.
FM.HAB.ZI.HI.FFH.NAU.AM.KI.AS.AA.KS.
Well these are the ones that I think I should.
Some are better left 'hated'. Pfft. They've done a hell lot of damage to not just me but the people around me.
FM- you were a friend of mine. i still remember the first time i met you. you were a junior of mine that time and we had nothing to do with each other. until, you disliked this cousin of mine because of a guy and somehow lied to your own just to fool me. but your cousin told me. haha. then you getting involved with that certain guy made me even more irritated. but no matter how hateful you know i was to you, you still regard me as your friend. i haven't seen you for quite a long time, i do hope to see you soon. that is if you are willing.
HAB- you as well were a good friend of mine, a junior too. i always thought you were sweet. but because of jealousy, all of that was ruined. you were always by his side. i didn't mind. until one day, i lost it. he defended you rather than me. i hated you and you hated me. you're the first to step up and say 'i hate you bitch' haha. we fought on and off due to several reasons. i got tired. you got tired as well. i tried not to care but it was impossible. you always try to defend yourself and win no matter what the cost. both hard-headed. now let it be. we could never get back to the way we used to. you even blamed me for somethings that i never did. he, too, did the same thing and at the same time defending you. you were lucky to have him by your side. now, all is lost and i'm sorry. at present, let's just hope it doesn't happen again.
ZI- i never hated you. it just made me mad the fact that he was crushing on you when there was still a relationship between us. it was hard. you're a beautiful girl and i didn't stand a chance against you and win. it's him we're talking about. in the end we got along even though we've never actually met face to face before. people tend to say unpleasant things about you which i try so hard to deny, because i don't see you that way. they know you better than i do though. still, i find you to be a nice girl. cheerful. but somehow problems arise between the two of you nowadays. all the best going through them.
HI- another junior. i felt guilty accusing her nonsense before but what could i do. you were much more closer in contact with him than i was. tsktsk. nowadays i tend to poke you whenever i see you around along with that friend of yours. haha. i tried not to care - as it wasn't any of my concern - but i couldn't help noticing that you and your gang were always passing by our table and glance towards the table he was at. i thought it was him you guys were looking for but then again, i was wrong. it was his friends you were seeking. you told me who they were and i appreciated it despite us barely knowing each other. thanks for the trust. and unexpectedly, you and i turned out to be 'related' somehow. haha. that eased it. and present day, i'll keep on poking you just for the fun of it. you told me you were veryyy ticklish. haha.
FFH- you, i was really pissed off at you for accusing those whatnots. haha. i kinda knew who you were when your name was displayed as his nickname. seriously, you had the guts to send me that mail. haha. it ended after he - on your behalf - apologised after i texted him up. still i wasn't satisfied. i waited till the hatred subside - which was about a month or so. then i tried my luck adding you up agaian, it succeed. turned out i was right as well, you were the girl that i thought you were. i didn't imagine having in contact with someone whom you've never spoken to when in the same school. i owe it much to him. you're a positive thinker. i wasn't but i tried. you remembered me though, which actually made me shocked. haha. yeah you'd always get things that is unexpected, like you said. i hope to meet up with you when a reunion comes, just not when he's around.
NAU- i never imagined you being in this picture. you are the girl who doesn't really cause trouble and yet i dislike you. well i don't really, just annoyed with his decision. i even accused the wrong person. how embarrassing. i searched the mag just to see who fits the name given to me as his new admire. i didn't believe it. haha. c'mon. you? you're a decent girl. you're lucky to have him. you liked him, he likes you back. i'm not sure if you even know me or not. or maybe you do. you've been giving these glares whenever i stare at you, both of you actually. or maybe it's just my imagination. wawa. i am still trying to find a way to make this feeling towards you subside fully. but i just don't know how. i'll keep trying. one day.
AM- a friend. why did i even disliked you? attitude? jealousy? yeah stupid reasons. you are and old friend whom got to know more in MS. you are the one whom i reminisce the past with. you tend to ask a lot of questions but i am happy to answer them all. i didn't want to hate you. i managed to let it go by the end of our third year. i was sooo hoping that we were not going to be in the same class but to my dismay we were and so was he. tough luck. but that changed. i forgot the grudge i held towards you. and you are a good speaker. i don't think anyone gets bored listening to you talk. haha. anyhow, i just hope it stays this way.
KI- we are not as close as we are now than we were two years ago and it was all because of this one guy. you and i faced similar challenges. not big ones though. you and him and me and he. too bad the four of us went our separate ways then. haha. but now, you and him are friends because he is now your friend's, and he and me ended up classmates. i detest you before for your play towards some guys. and speaking of guys, i didn't accept the request of this one guy because of you. you had a history with him and i didn't. i didn't want it to ruin our friendship either but unfortunately it did. now we're okay, just so-so. not more, not less.
AS- i've treated you so coldly and still you approach. you are my biggest loss yet. i never expected this would happen. i felt stabbed. i'm sorry that i made you cry for worrying too much about me. please, don't. it's not worth it, i told you this before. i cried too for making myself treat you this way. i don't want you to sacrifice for me the way i sacrificed for you. i'll be more at guilt. i still care. you won't lose me. i'll be back. right now, i just need time. i've lost friends before and i don't want to lose them again. you've been there for me through thick and thin more than anyone else. you've seen me at my worst when nobody did. you know me better than i know myself. so don't worry. i will come through.
AA- i haven't seen you around lately. we used to be 'inseparable'. haha. which made some of the people irritated. you're a great being though you brag a lot. haha. despite our race difference, you call me kaka. i still remember telling the gang to write a letter to you, to show how anti we are when you're around. most of them were harsh. i know, heartless. but it didn't reach you because i didn't have the heart to do so. you kinda knew what was happening and we drifted apart. you used to let out your problems and sighs on me. i appreciated it. i actually miss the times when you would call me at night and tell me your problems. i really do. you has your pros and cons but most people just see cons more. i tried to bring up the pros at times like i brought up haziqyassin's pros to a junior one time. both failed. haha. tough luck. the good old days.
KS- you doesn't look like a threat because you're isn't. you're a sister to me and i don't want that to ever change. you can be irritable with your words and all but that's just who you are and i'm trying to deal with it. haha. you've been there when i needed you. you'll comfort anyone when they're down with your gentleness. i know some people say you're tooo overly elegent. i know i know. but what can i do. but you're not as bad as what people say you are. you're too friendly that's all. you can think you're all that as well. it's tough to compete with that but i'm bearing with it. haha. i can't imagine how things would be without you. you've done so many deeds and yet i haven't seem to thank you quite enough. i'm sorry. i really mean it when i say "i miss you too." it's been a while.
I know I sound hypocrite but I'm trying to let it go. I've let go some of them and they went well. haha. So I hope this changes the way I look to them now.
FM.HAB.ZI.HI.FFH.NAU.AM.KI.AS.AA.KS.
Well these are the ones that I think I should.
Some are better left 'hated'. Pfft. They've done a hell lot of damage to not just me but the people around me.
FM- you were a friend of mine. i still remember the first time i met you. you were a junior of mine that time and we had nothing to do with each other. until, you disliked this cousin of mine because of a guy and somehow lied to your own just to fool me. but your cousin told me. haha. then you getting involved with that certain guy made me even more irritated. but no matter how hateful you know i was to you, you still regard me as your friend. i haven't seen you for quite a long time, i do hope to see you soon. that is if you are willing.
HAB- you as well were a good friend of mine, a junior too. i always thought you were sweet. but because of jealousy, all of that was ruined. you were always by his side. i didn't mind. until one day, i lost it. he defended you rather than me. i hated you and you hated me. you're the first to step up and say 'i hate you bitch' haha. we fought on and off due to several reasons. i got tired. you got tired as well. i tried not to care but it was impossible. you always try to defend yourself and win no matter what the cost. both hard-headed. now let it be. we could never get back to the way we used to. you even blamed me for somethings that i never did. he, too, did the same thing and at the same time defending you. you were lucky to have him by your side. now, all is lost and i'm sorry. at present, let's just hope it doesn't happen again.
ZI- i never hated you. it just made me mad the fact that he was crushing on you when there was still a relationship between us. it was hard. you're a beautiful girl and i didn't stand a chance against you and win. it's him we're talking about. in the end we got along even though we've never actually met face to face before. people tend to say unpleasant things about you which i try so hard to deny, because i don't see you that way. they know you better than i do though. still, i find you to be a nice girl. cheerful. but somehow problems arise between the two of you nowadays. all the best going through them.
HI- another junior. i felt guilty accusing her nonsense before but what could i do. you were much more closer in contact with him than i was. tsktsk. nowadays i tend to poke you whenever i see you around along with that friend of yours. haha. i tried not to care - as it wasn't any of my concern - but i couldn't help noticing that you and your gang were always passing by our table and glance towards the table he was at. i thought it was him you guys were looking for but then again, i was wrong. it was his friends you were seeking. you told me who they were and i appreciated it despite us barely knowing each other. thanks for the trust. and unexpectedly, you and i turned out to be 'related' somehow. haha. that eased it. and present day, i'll keep on poking you just for the fun of it. you told me you were veryyy ticklish. haha.
FFH- you, i was really pissed off at you for accusing those whatnots. haha. i kinda knew who you were when your name was displayed as his nickname. seriously, you had the guts to send me that mail. haha. it ended after he - on your behalf - apologised after i texted him up. still i wasn't satisfied. i waited till the hatred subside - which was about a month or so. then i tried my luck adding you up agaian, it succeed. turned out i was right as well, you were the girl that i thought you were. i didn't imagine having in contact with someone whom you've never spoken to when in the same school. i owe it much to him. you're a positive thinker. i wasn't but i tried. you remembered me though, which actually made me shocked. haha. yeah you'd always get things that is unexpected, like you said. i hope to meet up with you when a reunion comes, just not when he's around.
NAU- i never imagined you being in this picture. you are the girl who doesn't really cause trouble and yet i dislike you. well i don't really, just annoyed with his decision. i even accused the wrong person. how embarrassing. i searched the mag just to see who fits the name given to me as his new admire. i didn't believe it. haha. c'mon. you? you're a decent girl. you're lucky to have him. you liked him, he likes you back. i'm not sure if you even know me or not. or maybe you do. you've been giving these glares whenever i stare at you, both of you actually. or maybe it's just my imagination. wawa. i am still trying to find a way to make this feeling towards you subside fully. but i just don't know how. i'll keep trying. one day.
AM- a friend. why did i even disliked you? attitude? jealousy? yeah stupid reasons. you are and old friend whom got to know more in MS. you are the one whom i reminisce the past with. you tend to ask a lot of questions but i am happy to answer them all. i didn't want to hate you. i managed to let it go by the end of our third year. i was sooo hoping that we were not going to be in the same class but to my dismay we were and so was he. tough luck. but that changed. i forgot the grudge i held towards you. and you are a good speaker. i don't think anyone gets bored listening to you talk. haha. anyhow, i just hope it stays this way.
KI- we are not as close as we are now than we were two years ago and it was all because of this one guy. you and i faced similar challenges. not big ones though. you and him and me and he. too bad the four of us went our separate ways then. haha. but now, you and him are friends because he is now your friend's, and he and me ended up classmates. i detest you before for your play towards some guys. and speaking of guys, i didn't accept the request of this one guy because of you. you had a history with him and i didn't. i didn't want it to ruin our friendship either but unfortunately it did. now we're okay, just so-so. not more, not less.
AS- i've treated you so coldly and still you approach. you are my biggest loss yet. i never expected this would happen. i felt stabbed. i'm sorry that i made you cry for worrying too much about me. please, don't. it's not worth it, i told you this before. i cried too for making myself treat you this way. i don't want you to sacrifice for me the way i sacrificed for you. i'll be more at guilt. i still care. you won't lose me. i'll be back. right now, i just need time. i've lost friends before and i don't want to lose them again. you've been there for me through thick and thin more than anyone else. you've seen me at my worst when nobody did. you know me better than i know myself. so don't worry. i will come through.
AA- i haven't seen you around lately. we used to be 'inseparable'. haha. which made some of the people irritated. you're a great being though you brag a lot. haha. despite our race difference, you call me kaka. i still remember telling the gang to write a letter to you, to show how anti we are when you're around. most of them were harsh. i know, heartless. but it didn't reach you because i didn't have the heart to do so. you kinda knew what was happening and we drifted apart. you used to let out your problems and sighs on me. i appreciated it. i actually miss the times when you would call me at night and tell me your problems. i really do. you has your pros and cons but most people just see cons more. i tried to bring up the pros at times like i brought up haziqyassin's pros to a junior one time. both failed. haha. tough luck. the good old days.
KS- you doesn't look like a threat because you're isn't. you're a sister to me and i don't want that to ever change. you can be irritable with your words and all but that's just who you are and i'm trying to deal with it. haha. you've been there when i needed you. you'll comfort anyone when they're down with your gentleness. i know some people say you're tooo overly elegent. i know i know. but what can i do. but you're not as bad as what people say you are. you're too friendly that's all. you can think you're all that as well. it's tough to compete with that but i'm bearing with it. haha. i can't imagine how things would be without you. you've done so many deeds and yet i haven't seem to thank you quite enough. i'm sorry. i really mean it when i say "i miss you too." it's been a while.
I know I sound hypocrite but I'm trying to let it go. I've let go some of them and they went well. haha. So I hope this changes the way I look to them now.
Sunday, August 24, 2008
HNR.
What is HNR? Who? Why?
It's nothing actually, just something my cousins and I made up last year. Hahaha. It was because I was in the state of losing myself then poof 'let's create HNR' :P
HazimahNajiahRabiah.
We are the bestcousinsforever. We've been close since we were little because of our not-so-huge age gap. Bee's the eldest of the 1991 cousins, Zee's the third and Jee's the only 1992. Yeah. Nowadays we seldom meet up unless there's a family occassion. Tsktsk. I'm just here to post pictures :) because I've made a post about them two before and many posts about myself by other members of tis blog :p
It's nothing actually, just something my cousins and I made up last year. Hahaha. It was because I was in the state of losing myself then poof 'let's create HNR' :P
HazimahNajiahRabiah.
We are the bestcousinsforever. We've been close since we were little because of our not-so-huge age gap. Bee's the eldest of the 1991 cousins, Zee's the third and Jee's the only 1992. Yeah. Nowadays we seldom meet up unless there's a family occassion. Tsktsk. I'm just here to post pictures :) because I've made a post about them two before and many posts about myself by other members of tis blog :p
Raya 2006.
Pantai Telisai, Hakim's birthday 2007..jpg)
12.07.07.jpg)
31.08.07.jpg)
07.09.07.jpg)
10.09.07. Sunshine School Reunion. Jee tagged along :P.jpg)
15.09.07.jpg)
1st day of raya 2007..jpg)
Jee's open house..jpg)
16.11.07.jpg)
21.03.08. Night after K-mel's nikah. *notice that my hair and Biah's are clipped together?*.jpg)
23.03.08. Cake after K-mel's and bang Erol's sanding..JPG)
29.03.08. Mulih tiga hari. *1week actually..jpg)
Dimsum... .jpg)
23.06.08..jpg)
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